Friday, October 29, 2004
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fuckin hell
my damn patience is snapping.'i know.i know..' you said.guess it doesnt bother you that much..sounds fucking pathetic huh?seems like im struggling through this all alone.odd feelings of emptiness and silence intertwined in my head last night.and even in my dreams you were there.why am i putting myself through this crap.why do i have to be treated this way.i dont deserve that darlin.noone does.everything seems like a chess game.first the urgency,then the waiting.but i would not run after you,begging,darlin.i would only develop my pieces and secure my defences.'nobody waits for anyone'.sounds so true,just what i wanted to hear.im not naive anymore mum..ur right.'the longest journey begins with a single step' is a fucking mammoth understatement.
oleanders could live through anything,so why do they need poison for?
couldnt they just be bitter?
♥
5:50 pm
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