Monday, October 04, 2004
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mistakes
a relationship is supposed to be
innocent and beautiful in its own ways
but as awesome as a relationship can be
it was definitely too overwhelming for me
10 months have passed
and i must say
it isnt easy to keep a relationship healthy
heard about
'its hard for someone to love you when you dont love yourself'?
it is a roadblock in my relationship indeed
i need time for myself
need some time to focus on being happy with myself
im so tired, so very tired
i hate to take the responsibility of worrying about
someone else's happiness or troubles
i know i shouldnt be doing that
but its just me
im always doing that, ever since young...
mom kept telling me this
'ur not ready for any intense relationship..'
thought of it as bullshit as first
but its starting to make sense to me
i realised that sometimes,
i tend to focus too much on my own feelings
and i dont have enough emotional energy
it takes to respond to the needs in a close relationship.
sighhh i need some time off
for myself, and this relationship
i miss you hun
♥
10:00 pm
i scribble (:
