Saturday, January 29, 2005
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tainted
just felt that my last days of 17's are flushed away.i couldnt blush like how i used to anymore.feel old,gnawed pliant and unrecognizable.too many things going on.i just want to run away from all of it-relationship,family,friends. how i wish i could sleep forever..-bahhh-just feeling so emotionally worn out nowadays.tried to struggle for composure,but it is taking a whole load of strength outta me.im so tired of everything.
the world is too cold.people whom i thought treasured true friendships turned out to be so completely different.the hypocrisy,the false smiles,the feigned friendliness is too much an issue for me to comprehend.how can they be beyond pissed and act like its all perfectly normal in the morning?if you think this friendship is a big sham.so be it.i can only say i have tried my best to be there for you..
[all i want is to be truly happy, to be able to smile from deep within.. ]
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10:21 am
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