Wednesday, March 23, 2005 >
i hate you

i remember how i used to look up to you. you were smart, sensitive, and you never fail to give in to me. remember how we used to walk back from school together, how we used to sneak into the room to enjoy whatever snacks we bought from the canteen's candy shop. you were my personal haven, and one of the strongest pillar in my life. but you are also the one who rob me of everything i had left to take. i was tattooed, every inch of my skin was penetrated and stained. i had spent the last six years trying to build up some kind of skin, so i wouldnt drip with blood everytime you come near me. yes, i have hurt you that day, but thats because the pain was too much to take. what did you mean by, how could i do that to you? werent you confusing our pronouns? the fucking question really was how could you do this to yourself? you tore the love into pieces, and everything had became a payment that comes to due. sometimes, i do wish id never see you again. though i used to fantasize about talking to you like how we used to, it will never happen, not for a long time..