Friday, April 15, 2005
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ryan.
i miss catching shooting stars in the sweet silent nights..
i miss the way you always hold my hands so tight, like as if im gonna let it go..
ry seems to be the only one i could totally open up with. i feel completely at ease when im around him. i can talk/laugh and be completely goofy/romantic/random with when we are together.
i can see that he had tried as hard as he could to understand me, but he just couldnt..
its hard to find a guy who could look deep enough to understand me, and really see me for who i am. as time passes, i felt that he had started to get his life back together again. and thats when we started to see lesser of each other. i know i am a difficult person to handle, i am one of those people who would always prefer to look for water in the desert even if there is a sparkling spring rightdown the block. i am totally un-trusting, jealous and my emotions are volatile, and i knew from the start that guys would eventually just decide to give up on me. they will probably say, ' i give up, she will never believe a thing i say ' or stuff like that. maybe that was the reason why i had never gotten into a relationship.
[pregnant pause]
maybe, i think ..
i need to meet my match. i need someone who can keep up with me. someone as unpredictable as me. someone who tells me that they dont feel like coming over to see me, but shows up at my door ten minutes later. someone who keeps me on my feet. someone who brings out the best in me, and inspires me. someone who will make me feel beautiful..
if kisses cant hold the man you love, then your tears wont bring him back.. -unknown
♥
3:30 am
i scribble (:
